the choices we make

                                     what do i want , 

in the past weeks even mounts i have started to change , i finally decided who i wanted to be an what live i want to lead . now i just need to make shore that i don't stray  from that pad. its hard to do to keep this life style going but i am having fun , an that's the most important thing. a few days ago i came back from my vacation an there was no problem going right back in too my life style of eating only vegetarian / vegan an it has really started to feel like me , i no longer feel the urge  for a hamburger or the need for any other kind of meat i am happy whit a peach of vales or something from the vegetarian butcher . i am really changing an it feels good. its hard to start a new life style it isn't just the food you need to change but also the way you treat your body an the way you choose to dress . when i was younger i was the kid that always was doing the handstands an splits i was the wild child climbing rooftops an i was the child wearing the boy's clothes . 

i no longer climb  rooftops  , i no longer climb threes or wear boy's clothes but do miss it sometimes . i was a fit kid an that changed when i got sick because i stopped everything . i gained wait an let myself go. i have had hard times in the past but i am working  to turn them in to lessons , an that's hard. tree weeks ago i started training whit a group running for beginners every Saturday an it is hard 45 minutes of hell but i can feel my body change i no longer feel tired walking up the stairs an i feel more alive when i am running. i am also wearing more skirts which no longer feels strange i still love my jeans but on a good an shiny day i love to wear a dress or a skirt . you couldn't get me near one of those a few years ago maybe only for the holidays but now i have at least six or seven dresses an skirts hanging in my closet . but this topic isn't about my clothes or about my still wanting to climb threes but its about what i really want , an that's world peace . who doesn't want that but its not going to happen at least not in my live time like the way it is going right now most likely we will have another world war before the see the light , maybe i should just go whit those astronauts of mars one to start over out there  an create a new community that  sounds great but hell i am to short an i still love earth to much to leave it for ever .

what do i want  what do i really want its a hard question for some , an a easy one for the most . we want money we want love an peace we want security an hunger to stop we want world domination an we want those new shoes . 

we want , we want everything but we cant have it all .

peace out xoxo,

                       JAZZ 

OMNIA (Official) - Earth Warrior

an amazons photo shoot

a amazons photo shoot , 

so its pretty easy to change your life style , ass i have found out . i am a born vegan well a new born vegan an i love it . i do still have some struggles sometimes tho but i can live whit that . so a few days ago i decided i needed some new pictures , i wanted something new so my mom an i went to the park. as i am an amateur photographer this was the perfect way for me to try some new things whit my camera. an amazons photo shoot my mom an me an some school kids staring at us from across the park.

so i am loving these pictures there new an crazy , an most of all there great. not perfect but the do have a earth warrior way about them which is perfect. so here the are some amazonian earth warrior pictures of me an my mom don't judge me to hard i am an amateur............

there are also a few nature an surrounding pictures here i really went crazy whit my camera 

        earth warriors 

an old abandoned bunker whit allot of graffiti  

an gate way in too paradise . i love the way things look on camera 

i do look like an amazone i would have loved to be one in the old days, just like xena or Gabrielle 

 i love the way these pictures have come out the are real fun an new an i love the fact that the make me look like a warrior princes whiteout the latex 

green been's, the beginning

green been's , a new beginning, let the spirits know 

i am standing at the beginning of a new live , the live i have always wished for myself but was always to afraid of living. i am about to make allot of changes to my live , an some of them are going to be hard. i am not afraid to change when it is for the best, an i want to be the best that i can be so for me this is the way. i wasn't always the nicest girl, an i am not saying that i am perfect . no buddy is but i can try to at least come close to it .an i can at least try to change who i was , that is all i am asking of myself.

the world can be a hard cold place , if you let it . but when you really try hard you can really see natures true colors. an there beautiful..... were all nature's children were all blessed whit live, an no one is the same because that would be really boring. i life live my way, i see the colors of the wind, i see the animals an the world around me as being alive. i don't do conflict's i don't do hate i cant stand racism an ass a polyamory pansexual i really cant stand homophobe's but i leaf everyone to believe what the want because i cant change someone's way of live or living. an i wouldn't want to. i only want to change my live.

so my live now involves to stop eating meat which is easier than i thought, i still have some meat in the fridge an i am going to finish that before completely giving it up but i am no longer eating it out side of the house which seems to be going really easy . soya based milk an organic cola clothing made of organic fabrics an more greens an fruits. i just started to make all these changes in my live an i can already feel the change,  the poison of all the junk food all the poison of my old ways are leaving my body an soul, an that feels good.

over the past few weeks, months an maybe even a year's i am going to share all the changes that i am going true whit all you nice folks, some pictures will be shared here.an thoughts about how i feel that it is going. maybe even some vegetarian recipes an poetry an you will all learn more about who i am what i like love don't like an want in live .

talk to you all later, may the spirits of this world be whit you all.                                                                                                                                                 xoxox jazz 

the zoo !

                                                  the zoo ,

a place where i can find peace, but also a place where i see pain. 

i love the zoo,  i love going there an i love to watch the animals especially the sea mammals. but now mater how much i love going there it always makes me wonder do those animals like it when we come there to watch them, i now most animals are born in zoo's all over the world so the don't now any better, but i can get really enoid when all those loud children run around, screaming an kicking against those glass windows. but of cores the don't now any better because there parents mostly just let them do it, because the did the same thing when the were young. but those animals are our world's creatures the were on this planet before we where. we need to treat them whit respect. animals don't deserve to be behind bars, but unfortunately there aren't many places left for them to live in peace .so for some animals the zoo is the save'st place. if that is true than we should look about what is good for them an not too what fills our pockets, those animals need peace an structure an the don't need children an full grown humans screaming at them to do something, to move or to look there way so the can make a picture. i love to go too the zoo it gives me a feeling of peace it shows me a world of animals that are almost extinct, i see those animals an think about where the come from i write about them an take pictures to capture the way the are in that moment. a few days ago i went to the zoo an hour away from where i live its a big zoo whit hundreds of animals small an big. i decided to go there because i needed some peace. i needed to see those animals to remind me that i am only one small person on this planet. i walk't around for hours an most animals where sleeping or just doing there own thing even at the oceanium there, the animals were minding there own business , but when i saw the penguins it reminded me of a animated movie i saw a few years ago cal't happy feet for those who have seen that movie now about which scene i am talking. all those penguins standing in one space staring at one place just stunt by the things around them there out of there home an the have no idea where the are, the are slaves to the caretakers an i felt sad because penguins are gracious an beautiful animals an here the are just standing like zombies. it made me wonder. am i a slave to my caretakers am i a slave of this world, well lets take a look... i bought a ticket too a zoo in which animals are used too bring them money. i am everyday panicking about food prices going up an i am everyday watching the news to hear about how more people died in a war about discrimination of race or Howe Ebola is spreading. i am a slave of the caretakers of this world our government i am a slave to my own greed an my own fears. i cant stop the world to be greedy, an i cant stop the world from fighting each other. but i can stop being afraid of my own fears an i can stop to be greedy i can turn them in to a strength an try to use them. i want a better world for myself , i want a better world for the animals an i want to make shore that when i have children of my own i can show them a world to be proud of because right now i am not, 

stay strong all of you xoxox 

peace out  jazz 

making a pagan pie of love , thank you omnia

making a vegan pagan pie , 

so a few days ago i was listening to some music on YouTube, whats new .... but any way i was watching an listening to music an than i came across a video from one of my favorite band's omnia where one of the band members was making a pie a vegan pie the first pie hey made for his wive an so i decided i wanted to also make one, yeah i stole his idea but everyone is doing it an i am just starting to learn how to make vegan recipes besides my mom also wanted to try t so i bough all the ingredients which aren't allot an started to put it together.
lets place it in the oven an wait for 30 minutes....... maybe we can talk about how cooking can be fun i love to cook to try new things, but i never really had the time or the right cooking material . now i do an whit my new living style i do need more warm an healthy meals. because no more meat so i need to cook more greens to keep my iron level's up an the truth is i don't mind it , so lets take a look at the pagan love pie..........
here it is , how does it look  yeah i now i am a real Picasso. 
it was allot of fun making this pie , an it tasted so good real good. now this wasn't my first vegan meal i made , the truth is it was my second. but this was the best one.  

recipe, vegan love pie ...... vegan pagan pie of love as i cal it .
get some cream spinach some salt cream cheese an some puff pastry an you can also make yourself a pie.
bon appetite



now this is a short one , i only wanted to share this whit you all .
have a nice day an enjoy the sun

peace out, xoxo
             jazz                          

a new way to live.......my way

                        a new way to live , my way 

there are allot of things i need to change in my live because starting a new life style, isn't only about the way i eat drink or think its also about the way i dress or whit what i clean my house.., there are allot of things i need to change to make shore that there organic an good for the environment because i want my great great great grandchildren to still have a planet to live on. so why not start whit me,     i don't have a car an i don't smoke, i am an open book that still has allot of pages.. that can be filled whit good things. i want my future children to be proud of me , i want tho be able to give them something more than just money. i want to give them the world i want to make shore that the learn about the importance of the world around us an that greed is destroying it. people don't see it but if were all just going to bury our heads than we wont have a planet to live on anymore....... or has any one ever seen tera nova.... just one thing that could happen world wide pollution, it is already happening. but my blog isn't about me trying to change the way you all look at things because we all have our own believes an we all have our own lives i respect that. this blog is about me an my way of living. my dreams an my hopes for the future.

i am not entirely against technology, when it is used for the good . because i am a sci-fi geek an that will never change but technology has made people lazy it made me lazy.we have computers an phones an tablets an the TV. children growing up these days hardly come out at all an when the do there not leaving whiteout there phone or game boy's. i am an addict i love my shows an i can watch them for hours on the TV or on the computer but i also love to go outside an see nature, to walk around an to see more than just four walls . lucky for me i was born in the 90s so i grew up whiteout some of the luxury we now have. most of my time was spent out doors or playing hide an seek on roof tops. i was a real daredevil.  an now when i am older i miss it, i can see that i have changed an not all in a good way. i have bin sick for a while i was afraid to go outside, an to do groceries or to even take a shower. because the world became such a big place to crowded, i was scared for all the things out there scared for what the future was holding for me an thank the gods that i am slowly healing from that because the world is beautiful an to be outside is what makes me happy.

for those who now me, now that i am a crazy an that i take my music very serious.i am obsessed whit some bands there band members an what there saying, an my list is very long. it is also partial because of music that i finally made this choice. listening to 30 seconds to mars and listening to omnia realizing  that i need to change that if i want a better future i need to get it so i am.

let me leave you all whit this poem i found online, 

talk to you all again later,
                                  oxoxo jazz