what do i want ,
in the past weeks even mounts i have started to change , i finally decided who i wanted to be an what live i want to lead . now i just need to make shore that i don't stray from that pad. its hard to do to keep this life style going but i am having fun , an that's the most important thing. a few days ago i came back from my vacation an there was no problem going right back in too my life style of eating only vegetarian / vegan an it has really started to feel like me , i no longer feel the urge for a hamburger or the need for any other kind of meat i am happy whit a peach of vales or something from the vegetarian butcher . i am really changing an it feels good. its hard to start a new life style it isn't just the food you need to change but also the way you treat your body an the way you choose to dress . when i was younger i was the kid that always was doing the handstands an splits i was the wild child climbing rooftops an i was the child wearing the boy's clothes .
i no longer climb rooftops , i no longer climb threes or wear boy's clothes but do miss it sometimes . i was a fit kid an that changed when i got sick because i stopped everything . i gained wait an let myself go. i have had hard times in the past but i am working to turn them in to lessons , an that's hard. tree weeks ago i started training whit a group running for beginners every Saturday an it is hard 45 minutes of hell but i can feel my body change i no longer feel tired walking up the stairs an i feel more alive when i am running. i am also wearing more skirts which no longer feels strange i still love my jeans but on a good an shiny day i love to wear a dress or a skirt . you couldn't get me near one of those a few years ago maybe only for the holidays but now i have at least six or seven dresses an skirts hanging in my closet . but this topic isn't about my clothes or about my still wanting to climb threes but its about what i really want , an that's world peace . who doesn't want that but its not going to happen at least not in my live time like the way it is going right now most likely we will have another world war before the see the light , maybe i should just go whit those astronauts of mars one to start over out there an create a new community that sounds great but hell i am to short an i still love earth to much to leave it for ever .
what do i want what do i really want its a hard question for some , an a easy one for the most . we want money we want love an peace we want security an hunger to stop we want world domination an we want those new shoes .
we want , we want everything but we cant have it all .
peace out xoxo,
JAZZ
